[8:25pm]
Just checking in, been feeling pretty stretched out lately, feels like I've been juggling a lot of different roles in my life. Been working quite hard on some stuff lately cos I had a sudden burst of "drive" or whatever, and the problem is I'm a bit optimistic when it comes to that, and I think I can get more done than I have actual time for. My mind's pretty all over the place. It's half term right now so I haven't been at college this week, and I love half terms because it means it's a week where I can dedicated all my time to doing what I really wanna do... but then of course everyone else has the same idea, what some people really wanna do is hang out with me. Don't get me wrong, I love hanging out with certain people, but sometimes I just really would rather do my own thing and focus on that. My social batteries have been quite low recently but I don't have the heart to tell people.
Luckily tomorrow I'm going hiking with Mimi in the peak district so that'll be great to recharge. Because being with her is as good as being on my own... if that makes sense. She doesn't have an effect on my social battery is all I mean. I can see her anytime
Later this week on Saturday I'm scheduled to hang out with Alfie and Lynn and Will and Mimi's gonna come along too hopefully, cos it's Lynn's bday on the Sunday. Don't get me wrong, I love each and every one of those people, and of course it's Lynn's bday so I'm not gonna ditch that, but let's just say I'll be relieved on Sunday to have some me time...
Except... Alfie's probably going to stay round mine on the Saturday night, cos of trains cos he lives in Stoke on Trent. Thing is if he stays over on a Saturday, the trains don't even start til about 2 on a Sunday, so that's half of my me-day gone. Again, Alfie, if you're reading this, I hope you know you are my best friend of all time and I love you and I know the sunday trains are what they are but it's just one of those things where I just need to catch a break.
I think I might do the unimaginable and tell him that actually because he'd understand and hopefully he could just leave a bit earlier on the Saturday evening so that he could make it alright. Funny I was actually hoping Mimi would be able to stay over lol, and I guess if Alfie did too that'd be fine, he could just sleep on the sofa downstairs. I don't even know what's happening on Saturday anyway. I just want Sunday to myself because it's my sacred rest day. Alfie said if he stayed round til 2 on sunday then we could work together on some new Knutmo Five (our band) merch, but I'm like ughhhhh I'VE BEEN SO HARD AT WORK THIS WEEK I WOULD REALLY APPRECIATE A LAZY DAY.
I don't think I'm a bad person for having a small social battery, but I just hate to be that guy to tell people to leave early. I'm awkward enough as it is n it's not fun letting people down, especially when they're the kinda people who need that social interaction to GAIN energy. I could never understand.
Rant over, sorry reader, hope you understand my point of view.