Saturday, Feb 28th 2026
[9:06am]
Been feeling a bit down lately and I don't like it. Maybe it's the weather or the food I've been eating recently. Some people get fat when they eat loads of carbs but honestly I just get depressed. I'm not depressed but I just feel a bit lost and lonely.
Today I'm going over to see Alfie and Ollie for a little knutmo band practice, then coming home and I'm going to a party later tonight. A different Ollie is turning 18 so yeah. He's an old mate from school and I'm grateful he thought of me to invite me.
When I'm in a state like this, I always tell myself "I just need one more day to myself before I go out and be social" ... but I don't think that's true, I think I should push myself out of my comfort zone, and maybe that will push me out of this slump. I've spent a lot of time on my own recently, and as much as I hate to admit it, I think I do need to see people sometimes to regenerate my energy. not often. But sometimes.
Going out for breakfast with my parents now. When I get back I'll see if I can slot in a cheeky bit of songwriting because I have an idea that needs exploring. Then I'll go to Stoke to see Alfie. Then come back and go to the party. Then sleep.
[6:31pm]
Okay well scratch all that, life is amazing and I'm zesty for it. No joke. I don't know. Note to self: things change. "This too shall pass" as they say. Seeing Alfie and Ollie was great I had tons of fun, and as I was leaving Alfies to drive home, the grey clouds completely vanished to reveal a beautiful blue sky as the sun started setting. I drove home listening to mine and mimi's joint playlist. Had my window open feeling the rush of air to my side. I got cold eventually so closed it, and felt weird because that ear had gone slightly muffled. it evened out eventually.
Really pretty shit, makes me feel something. I'm off to other ollie's party now
Oh yeah also I finished that song idea i had earlier. wrote it while waiting for my cooked breakfast to come at the garden centre my parents and i went to this morning. Its called I Met You 13 Years Ago, I have some cool plans for its future. To be honest, the reason I became happy today started with writing that song. Writing makes me very happy, every time i finish a song I get that "i've done my homework" feeling. It feels productive and rewarding. My day could be shit as balls but if I wrote a song then all hope is not yet lost.
Goodbye February, you crazy cat. See you next year!