Saturday, Mar 14th 2026
[12:13am]
Just got back from hanging out with Ben Jarvis and also Sam Chambers on friday night. Don't get your hopes up, it wasn't a mad night out, it was just 3 guys completely sober chilling out. First it was just me and ben, and we went to Highfields Park in nottingham and set in front of a big Uni building by the lake. We sat there for a couple hours just catching up - mostly him telling me stuff about all the gossip in his college with our old main friendgroup (which I'm more distant from now since I went to a seperate college). I never really have much gossip so these kinds of catch ups between ben and I normally end up with me just reacting to all the stuff he says and giving my outsider perspective. I've grown really fond of these kinds of conversations with him, we've been meeting up fairly regularly and discussing gossip like this for about 8 years now. It's become less regular as time goes on but at the same time I value it more and more.
After that we met up with Sam C. and went on a drive round and ended up at Maccies, then went home.
I'm really looking forward to seeing Mimi tomorrow, or later today should I say! I'm staying for the night, but it's mother's day tomorrow so I won't be able to hang about for too long in the morning.
I feel like i wanna talk more, but I haven't got much else to say. Or anything interesting to say. I'm both tired and not. I feel like staying up a bit and working on something productive, but I'll probably regret that tomorrow morning when I wake up with 5 hours of sleep feeling like death... so maybe not.
Just a little longer... surely there was something else meaningful I could say here...
Something...
Anything?
so edgy...
Ah shut the fuck up.
It's always the girls you see with the bleached blonde hair
With the eyes and the smiles and the teeth everywhere
It's the one good girl out of two hundred and fifty
That talks to herself even though she's so pretty
That talks to herself as she walks through the city
It's the kids that sucked on their thumbs too long
And they just regress when the things go wrong
It's the pressure from the public that makes me sympathetic
Her doctor says she's schizophrenic
But her agent says she's too photogenic to be ill...
Stay still... give us a smile
Some words about the conflict between a woman's mental health issues and her role in the entertainment industry and how her struggles are overlooked due to her physical beauty.